Talqeen' and the funeral

Nov 20th 2008

a new msg recieved ; weyy geng mak aku ningggal dlm pkul 9 pg td.

omg! i quickly call tht unknown number as i was woke up from dreaming. if im not mistaken it was at 2.30 pm.

ian : weyh sapa nie?

apis : aku nie, apis.

ian : apis mana?

apis : apis ahmad doh!

ian : oh okay okay. ang ktmana?

apis : kt kg dh nie.

ian : orite² . hg tunggu. japp g aku smpai!

i rushed to the loo and went to his house. it takes around 20 mins for me to reach there. phew.. when i reach at his house, there were many peps and relatives surround. it was a gloomy noon. seriously, i was very compassion. then i see apis, sitting with his cousin. he is still wearing the Politeknik Ungku Omar's t-shirt. and still.. tuck in.

ian : weyh ang okay dak? :( and he nodded slowly. yeah. i can feel the sorrow and pain hes facing at that time.

ian : cool lah pis. jgn la down sgt.

apis : yea. aku dlm cls td doh. mula² kakak aku cll, ckp mak tenat. pastu abg aku plak clling gtau suroh blik. aku pun slumber ah kuar drpd clss trus blik. masa tuu aku dh tau mak dh xdak doh. babi sedih!

ian : oh cool² weyh. mak sakit apa?

apis : demam besa je doh. dh 2 hari, tp pg td dy mcm lesu sgt. tgk² dh smpai waktu dy.

ian : oh. xpaa laa. nseb baek ang blik tiap² minggu. xde trasa sgt.

then, he asked me if i got a cigs. i said yes, i got. so we went to the backyard and smoke. but then, after half of his cigs, he gave back to me.

apis : weyh aku xlalu lah. tp nk je rokok.

ian : xpe. ang tgh daunt tuu. aku phm. aku phm.

then he entered the house to help his relative in order to manage the jenazah. hell. i was touched by the atmosphere. i was thinking what if im in his position? im the oldest, and i got a young sister. (3years old) wtf! seriously im not ready yet to face this. lucky him. he the youngest from seven other siblings. haihhs.

after donate some money, i could see my classmate nordin together with his dad coming. he told me that his mum already told him about this after he came back from extra class. (we do have an extra class that morning) after a few mins, my best buddy, annam comes. also from PUO came with my old friend ehsan. yeah, we chatted until the time for solat jenazah. hmm.. silent for while.

after tht, all of us together went to the graveyard. pheww. but, apis was very calm. real cool for the situation. then, i told annam that i wanted to see the 'hole' for the jenazah. so he do takes me to the hole. perghh. this is my first time and i can see it was very deep. " nie laa liang lahad, depaa gali dlm² pastu buat mcm 1 lg lubang nk letak mayat tuu" annam said to me.

after the funeral, i was really wanted to cry. as i put away all those stupid egos. then the imam start to read TALQEEN. everyones was muted. then doa and tahlil. i sit there around 45 mins. after its all done, i greet apis again. at the time, his face was very red. damn pity. after apis splash the roses and pandans water , we went to apis's house. apis and i was the last person who walked away from the graveyard.

it was already 6.30 pm. before i went back home, apis invited me to come to his house at night. it will be a kenduri arwah for 7days. oh, so i agree.

at night, i came to apis's house together with annam. then, we sit together and chat. apis looks fine and he was able to smile and laugh. idk y. but, maybe he don't want to show us how terrible his feeling are.

at 11.30 pm , annam and ehsan went back to PUO and i went to my house.

p/s : apis, be strong okay. for those reader, tolong bersama sedekahkan al-Fatihah kepada mak apis. (maimunah) sorry, idk whats her full name.

ian sympathetic. Nov 21st 2008